I have heard it said that any life worth living is one worth recording. My life has been filled with manic highs, severe depression, and a few suicide attempts. I was arrested several times and imprisoned as I was flying high from mania.
I was kicked out of the military for drug abuse only to return back home where everyone hated me. I know what it's like firsthand to have nothing only for the entire world to turn their back on me.
I spent a lot of time in psych wards, treatment centers, and homeless shelters. I spent 3 days in a padded cell where I experienced hell on earth. I had civil commitments placed on me in two states. I never realized just how sick I was, but everyone else around me could see how sick I was for decades.
I have suffered tremendous loss and torment due to my mental illness and addiction. I have had several major manic breaks which ended up shaking me to my very core every time.
I heard the screams from the insane crying out in the institutions I got locked up in. I had to stand before multiple judges in handcuffs to beg for my freedom but no mercy was granted, I was left to rot in prison since no family would post my bond.
Now there is a balance in my medication, and my severe alcohol abuse is in recovery. This is a miracle as you will see throughout my story. My life purpose is to just be honest about my humanity and talk openly about all the mania, suicide attempts, and severe alcoholism.
“The two most important days in your life are the day you were born and the day you understand why.” Mark Twain.